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My little baby is running a fever. It breaks my heart to see him not feeling good.He is sleeping on my lap as I type this. So we are both in comfy lounge clothes and just lounging around today. (In case you are wondering, yes, I contacted Pavan's pediatrician.)
We have had such a busy month. Football games, hayrides, pumpkin patch and corn mazes. Its been so much fun. We are planning a fall photo shoot with pumpkins and leaves tomorrow as long as he is feeling better and has no more fever. Pavan loved the hayride. Ok, ok, so he loved the hay, was indifferent about the "ride". He got a huge pumpkin that is bigger than him! Believe it or not, it was only $10! (I get so excited when I find good deals!) Pavan also liked the pumpkin patch, he was playing in all the pumpkins. It was such a great day. We are now ready for Halloween! Pavan's Halloween costume will be a hoot! I can't wait! I'm in my second week of college. I love it! I have wonderful professors who I deeply respect. I have made a good friend in one of my classes. She is such a kind and beautiful soul. I feel close to her already! She is a kindred spirit. We are both single moms, and both of our exes are not the pick of the litter. Besides her,I have made a few other friends as well. My classes so far are easy and simple. Perfect for me to start off with and to get the hang of things. To my dedicated readers, I have some awesome news for you! My blog was chosen not only to review products, but I can do giveaways too! Would you like to get some free stuff? Comment below! (Only United States and Canada residents can participate.) These are well-known products. Perfect for mommas and grandmas! I will begin the reviews and giveaways as soon as my kit comes in the mail so keep checking back. You don't want to miss out on free products! Need to do my discussion posts for my classes before Pavan wakes up! Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend! Don't forget to comment! Wow! Pavan is 8 months old today! Where has time gone! I am so proud of the accomplishments we have made. He is going to turn out to be a fantastic little boy who will grow into an amazing gentleman. Which is so rare anymore. My sister L bought Pavan and I matching t-shirts for my birthday back in June. We are wearing them today. I want to get some pictures of us wearing them!
Pavan is crawling! He has been crawling for a couple weeks now! Thankfully he doesn't go far, he just scoots around. He has also been saying "mom"! I couldn't believe it the other day, I was in the kitchen making tea and all I hear is "MAHM" real loud! I went to the living room and I saw Pavan looking for me! Such a proud mommy moment! I teared up! It was amazing. He's said "mahm" a few times since then and looks right at me when he says it! His vocabulary now consists of 2 words, "yeah" and "mom" and all his little goos, babbles and giggles. Ok, ok, so I have a mini-rant. Not really a rant. Because its so darn cute, but ouch it hurts! Pavan still is exclusively breastfed. Every so often when he is nursing, he sticks his finger in his mouth along with my nipple! It is seriously one of the cutest things I have ever seen, but boy it doesn't feel so pretty! Last week, Pavan and I went to the park. I took him on the slides and we sat on the swing and swung together. He laughed out loud. I was even able to video it! We crawled through the tunnels and chased some Canadian geese (no harm was done to them, we just simply followed them around the playground). Hearing Pavan laugh is the greatest joy. Pretty soon, he wont need me to sit with him on the swings, or carry him through the tunnels.(Please, time, I'm begging you, slow down!) And what you ask are our plans for today? Well, we are going to run some errands. Acme, and kmart. Hopefully will make it somewhere to buy Pavan a pair of sneakers. He hates shoes and socks, so much like his momma. So I don't put his shoes on him, but it's getting cold so he will need to get used to wearing them! Hmm, maybe a pair of boots too. I also need to get some things for college. I start next week! I am so super excited to start! I can do so much with that degree, it's making me that much more excited! Anyway, then later tonight I have a coaches meeting for the football banquet. I had no idea we even had a banquet. How cool is that? I am excited to see what it entails, hopefully it doesn't fall on a visit night, and if it does maybe Pavan's father will switch nights. Nights are so difficult to do anything though, between college, visits, practices, babysitting, I don't have any free nights but Sunday! I wouldn't change any of it. I truly love 90% of my life. It took me months to be able to feel that way. Things are in no way how I want them to be, but I am making the best of it. Yes, I get stressed. Yes, I worry (more than any mom should, but I have good reason to). Yes, money is super tight. But I look at Pavan and I wouldn't have it any other way. God has a plan for us. We are blessed. I was on Pinterest last night and found this bible verse. God is within her, she will not fail; God will help her at break of day. Psalm 46:5. How awesome is that verse? I love it. It fits so perfectly with my life. The other verse that I have been living by is this : If you have faith as small as a mustard seed you can say to this mountain "MOVE" and it will move. Matthew 17:20. When Pavan was only a few months old I took him to church, and a man of God was praying over us and said "He will move mountains with the Word." I will never forget those words out of that mans mouth. I had magnets made with Pavan's picture and put that quote at the bottom. Those verses just remind me that God is bigger and stronger than any Earthly person, problem or situation. He's bigger than the hurtful words and actions. He's bigger than the bruises.He is bigger than the scars. I can do anything with Him. He is my strength (along with Pavan). The Lord is my refuge. All this that I'm going through is part of His larger plan. Sometimes I fall short and forget that. Sometimes I get angry at God and scream why?! but then I remind myself that He has a plan for me, for Pavan, for us. I take time each day and thank Him for something. No matter how small it is (I thanked him for the sun shining today) or how stupid (I thanked him yesterday for me not hitting the squirrel that decided to run in front of my car!) and I see my life slowly changing and I see my life in a more positive way. I may not always love what goes on in my life, but I do love my life. Pavan just fell asleep in my arms. I am going to lay him down and unload/load the dishwasher. And if he is still sleeping I can throw in a load of laundry before our errands. So friends, strangers, and family, as you read this Thank God for something. (Don't believe in God? Thank whomever you do believe in.) Just take a second and give Him thanks. Have a great Monday! What the heck? My entire last blog post didn't show up. I don't even remember what I typed! Oh well. Guess it wasn't meant to be.
I have to tell you about yesterday's football game. It was so adorable, I truly love all the girls on my squad. I had Pavan with me, and he fell asleep. So the girls made him a bed out of their pompoms! I laid him down, and all the girls just flocked around him and swooned. It had have been one of the cutest things ever! I do the girls' makeup, and Pavan ended up all glittery from me! We have so much fun at the games. I wonder if, when Pavan gets older, he will do cheerleading or football? I will support his choice either way! We will be signing up for mommy and me classes when he turns 9 months old. that's a month away! I want him to try everything and do what he wants! I have been trying to familiarize myself with the game of football. It's not easy. 1st in 10, do it again! Go. Fight. Win! Um. What exactly does that mean? I'm stupid when it comes to football! One of the cheerleaders was like "Coach Sherrie, we need to do "xyz" cheer! The players just did "abc"!" So, yeah. Any pointers to help me learn and remember the game? It would be much appreciated! So I am thinking and applying to use my blog to try and review products. I have enough traffic and site views to do it. What do you think? Would you read my product and store reviews? Hopefully I can! Boogie Wipes. Ever use them? I love them. Especially this time of year. I have been through countless packs of them. I have them in every diaper bag and in my purse. As well as the bag I give to Pavan's father so that he has them for visits. They are perfect, not too moist and not too dry. I even use them on my nose! I get mine right in Walmart. And they are not at all expensive. The come in the same style as disposable baby wipe packs, just smaller. Pavan hates getting his nose wiped, by boogie wipes or by tissues, but the boogie wipes just make it so much easier and help his poor little snotty nose. I am thinking about buying a big pack of them and keeping them on me for football games for the cheerleaders. The weather has been so crazy lately, seems like every one has a snotty nose! Not just little man! Off to get ready for Pavan's visit today. Please say a prayer for us. Then need to work on some college stuff! Hope everyone has a super Sunday! Maybe I'll post later today! So long for now! Pavan and I attended a baby shower last night. We had such a great time! It was for two of my former students. Yes, L and J (the parents-to-be) met in my class! I can't believe how much has changed in the last year. I was feeling pretty nostalgic last night. How things have changed. Seeing a bunch of my students last night and remembering when I first met them, I never would have pictured my life to be the way it is now. As hell on earth as is can be at times, I wouldn't change it for anything. I truly enjoyed sitting with my students, talking with them and laughing at their confessions. (As I am sitting here laughing at what you's did and I had no clue!! Ahh, the joys of teaching adults...Any more confessions you'd like to share?) As I posted last night on my facebook page, I am proud to now call you all my friends.
The hall was so beautifully decorated, I was impressed. The food was good (probably the most Spanish food that I have ever ate in one sitting!). And even thought I didn't always understand what people were saying, the atmosphere was so friendly. I loved getting to meet L and J's parents! And I hope you got a lot of what you need to start with! (I feel bad that I couldn't stay and watch the rest of the gifts being opened, but little man was getting tired! The joys of mommyhood!) L and J, I truly wish you both all the happiness in the world. I cannot wait to meet Baby J. She's gonna be so beautiful and I know Pavan is going to be excited to have a new friend to play with! When she arrives, enjoy every minute of it. They grow so fast, and love the hell out of her. Listen to advice of others, but follow your heart first and foremost. Do what your intuition says, not the words of others. I love you both and I love Baby J too! K, C, N, L, J and R, you know who you are, keep on doing what you're doing. You are all such amazing people. I am so proud of you all and how far you have come and as a teacher it's such am amazing feeling to be able to watch you "grow". ,You are all not the same people that I met in Personal Psychology over two years ago! (Yes! I has been *that* long!). It was so great to see you last night! Here's to many more years of friendship, new additions to our "H" family, sushi dates, play dates and dinner dates. Love you all. Its Pavan's bath time! Then we need to head out for his visitation today. Say a prayer for us. I attached a picture below of the "pamper" L left on my desk for me in school right after I told my students I was pregnant! It was so cute and I still have it packed away with Pavan's things to save! I am really not a person to watch a lot of tv. Although, there are a few I watch, or will watch, on a weekly basis. Right now, I watch Ink Masters and Big Brother. BB's season finale is tonight. Really excited for it! Then Once Upon a Time and Walking Dead. I so cannot wait! I am anxious to see how Rick and his gang get out! Darryl is still my favorite! I can live without Once, but I have to watch WD! I rarely even put kids TV shows on for Pavan. We are too busy playing and learning for TV. Pavan and I are going to have a lazy day today. We are both lounging in our pajamas, playing blocks and then we are going to get some things cleaned up and work in his play room. I still have toys in bags that need to be set up. My next project is going to be a sensory board. I am going to make it out of galvanized metal and fabric. He's going to love it when he gets bigger. My room mate and I are also going to get a mural painted. My friend J and I have been discussing how we are going to do it. Er, well, how she is going to do it. I have not painting drawing skills whatsoever. My stick figures don't look like stick figures! Pavan already has some really cool stuff in his playroom. (That's another thing on my to-do list today. Batteries in his toys!) I love DIY projects. I have already been planning what I am going to do for Christmas gifts. Pavan and I are going to make everyone their gifts. I can't believe I am thinking Christmas already and Halloween isn't even here yet! I have been having friends and family save coffee containers, baby food jars (I make Pavan's so I don't get any jars), and medicine bottles. I have some really cool ideas for them! It's fun to upcycle! I just checked my stats for this blog. Can I just say, WOW? I can't believe how many people are reading my blog on a daily basis! It's anywhere between 10 and 90 people a day! That's just from this month! I hope that I can be an inspiration and a hope to other women who are in my shoes. Pavan will be so proud of me. Time to get some things on my to-do list done! Plus I have a college orientation today! Can't be too lazy today! Hope everyone has a wonderful Wednesday and I would love to know where you're from! Email me or comment below! Just know that I think it's pretty awesome that you are taking the time to check out my blog. I was accepted to a University on Thursday! I am all enrolled and I pick out my classes on Monday. Can I just say that I am super excited about this? Woo hoo! All my financial aid has been filed and filled out, I am all set!
Pavan is my biggest motivation for this. I am determined to excel at this. I am going to make a good life for him, it's going to take me a little while to get on my feet, but I know I can and I will. Pavan is not my only motivation. Since March, I have seen so many things in this state that are so cruel and unfair. I have met many other domestic abuse survivors and other single moms. I am going to do everything in my power to make a difference. God is good. ok, ok. Enough blogging for this morning. We're really gonna boogie woogie off here this time! So because I couldn't get Pavan's father to give me permission to take him on the Disney Cruise, I filed a motion with the court to get the courts permission. Court was yesterday morning. To make a long story short, we are going! God is good and He truly blesses Pavan and me.
So in court yesterday, he told the judge that "she never holds up her end of the bargain." Since when is it a bargain? I would never compare my son to a bargain. And last time I checked, I have been the one to bend and change and when I needed to change, I was threatened to be held in contempt. So, hate to burst your bubble, but I HAVE been holding up everything I have said I would do. I do what is best for Pavan, and not myself. I'm sorry I don't want you having my son longer than your time because I fear for my son's safety (because I know you have been reading this, which is fine with me! This blog is to share my thoughts and feelings, so if you want to stalk me, by all means, go for it. I'm going to continue writing.). The judge said that it was ridiculous that we even had to be in court so that I could take Pavan on a trip. Yes, Your Honor, it is. If he didn't feel the need to control my life and what I do, I wouldn't have had to. Anyway, back to the cruise! We will be traveling to Florida, and if we get enough time down there we are going to take Pavan on a tour of Cape Canaveral. (Did I spell that correctly?) My best friend, C, and I have been discussing what excursions we want to take. We are going to the Virgin Islands, Bahamas, and Puerto Rico!. We are leaning on doing the walking tours, and local shopping! Shopping in the Caribbean, how much luckier could a lady get?! Gamma bought Pavan a 101 Dalmatians umbrella stroller to take with us. How perfect? If anyone reading this has any ideas, tricks, or good things to know and remember, please comment or email me! Nowhere to go today. Gonna lounge around in our pajamas and relax! Pavan hasn't been feeling good. And honestly, neither have I. Also, gotta finish up choreographing the cheerleaders Halloween Dance. It's Electtic! Ok, Pavan and I are gonna relax, boogie and woogie, enjoy your day! Life is a song, Sing it. Pavan and I spent the morning playing and he "helped" me fill out some forms. (So excited about this, will share when I get some more information!) You know, its crazy how quickly time goes! I can't believe it's after 4 already! So much for doing laundry and emptying the dishwasher. At least I got my forms done! I was at cheerleading practice last night and for our half-time show they are dancing to the song "Shake it Off" by Taylor Swift. And as the kids and I were dancing the lyrics to this song really hit me.. So haters, you can hate. Fakers, you can fake. Heartbreakers, you can break. I'm just gonna shake. And dance. And smile. On another note, I am asking for prayers for my grandfather. He's getting up there and isn't doing too well. He was just in the hospital. My roommate and I invited Pop-Pop and Nana to our house for dinner and so he can spend some time with Pavan. We are planning on it one day next week. I can't wait, I love spending time with my po It's 4:30 and I need to go get dinner in the crock pot. Ham and cabbage. Yum my favorite! I hope we have vinegar! I also want to get another post on here before bedtime! So be on the lookout for it! |